I CAN’T DO THAT AND STAY WHOLE.
Those seven little words
that guide my life
have caused me
more pain
that any other seven words
I’ve ever heard,
or used.
I self-inflict that pain,
knowing that
compromising my wholeness,
well,
would be
compromising my wholeness.
I’ve left financially rewarding jobs
because I couldn’t do THAT
and stay whole.
I’ve left mediocre relationships
because I couldn’t do THAT
and stay whole.
The pain caused
from leaving in truth,
however,
is less than
the forthcoming pain
of staying in a lie.
You know that leaving-pain,
the pain that makes you
wail uncontrollably
over the loss
of what you had.
Without my wholeness,
who knows where I would be.
I could be a lyin’ ass
multi-millionaire
if it weren’t for
those seven words.
I’d be miserable somewhere,
numbing myself,
somehow,
from the fact
that I didn’t have the courage
to stay whole.
Wholeness
is a deal-breaker in business,
it’s a cock-blocker in love,
and a eye-opener in life.
Wholeness
is the reason
that I can choose to
dive alone to the depths of despair,
that I can face the fact
that THIS is all there is.
To be able to stand
unscathed
in that aloneness
in the comforting arms
of my own inner peace
is the only place
that I can be.
I would not trade
those seven words
for any job,
or any relationship,
or any amount
of money.
Respect for my Wholeness,
however dark and lonely a place
that THAT puts me,
is the reason why I have been,
why I am today,
and why I will continue to be,
The Happiest Man Alive.
