OUCH!

I am an expert at not caring.

Caring is an obstacle
that stumbles many
on their paths
towards enlightenment.

It began early for me.

On my spiritual path
seeking inner peace,
love,
and a truthful life,
many would say
that I’m a failure.

OUCH!!

That used to hurt,
but today I don’t give THAT
any power in my life.

Two Marriages,
Three Degrees,
Multiple Lifestyles,
and Hundreds of Careers
have made me well aware
of who I am.
Hundreds.

If I continued to care what others think,
or cared about the money I’ve spent on degrees,
or the time spent in various jobs,
then I would be overcome
with shame and gullt.

My self-esteem would be non-existent.

I wake up daily with two choices:
Look back and worry about where I’ve fucked up,
or learn from my past and put my best foot forward.

THAT moment is a finite point
and is the ONLY moment
that matters.

The older I get,
the more aware I am,
that I’ve been given
just the right puzzle pieces
to put together
a meaningful,
rich,
and colorful existence.

I have to not care
that my path
looks different
than other’s.

When I said in a prior post that “I am not a Christian”,
I got many people who responded,
basically saying:
“But you are Blanche, you are”.

Don’t go trying to convince me
that I really do care,
because,
thank god,
I REALLY DO NOT CARE.
Really.

*SISTER LOUISA
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of SISTER LOUISA ART,
make an appointment
to swing by & buy.

Bye